most “radical” (and especially “anarchist”) activist discourse has, by now, devolved into something with less sophistication than the recipe for microwave popcorn.So, because the emergent “radical” gangland language scares the shit out of me — in some ways even more so than angry cops — i’m making a point of shifting this blog in a new direction.
A few words to mark the transition…
Because, in theory, i write this for my own amusement, and for communication with my friends and family (though it’s open to the wide world of the web, and you!) and because following, let alone participating in, the constant status competitions (and insults and pathetically juvenile territorial pissings) that dominate online activist “debates” does not in any way amuse me or constitute communication of any value or significance in my view, i’m filing for a divorce from “the” activist “community” (and from anyone who is comfortable with that dubious phrase).
I plan to continue my passionate, sinful common-law relationship with activism; but i am *so* done paying any attention whatsoever to the prattle of sectarian fanatics.
The one-dimensionality of contemporary activist culture(s) may someday be overturned by a new (and improved?) Herbert Marcuse — but in my case i intend to simply, albeit emphatically, shrug. The coin was flipped and in response to the spirit of Emma Goldman’s (apocryphal?) quip about dancing, it has been decided that no, there shall be no dancing among “revolutionaries.” This has not been recognized because the “official” reply is that of course there will be, there must be dancing, dancing galore!
But it is always the same dance, forever. The same song. It isn’t even music anymore.
So i give up.
Not on justice (of course); not on people (for heaven’s sake!); not on anarchism (by god!). But i’m quite ready to give up on the charade of anarchist identity, and the bitter contest for cool radical street cred that it has become. I never wanted the prize, i only ever wanted to call bullshit on the game and end it — to help restore what i imagine(d) were the golden days of good faith pluralistic movement and community-building in a spirit of joie-de-vivre. Now i’ll just call bullshit and and exit. Not with a smash, but a whimper (and a groan).
Justice — which i understand in anarchist terms — is always worth fighting for. The prestigious label of “anarchist-therefore-most-authentic-revolutionary” is not.
If angry people seduced by a romanticized, violent gang-like mentality are determined to harass, insult and intimidate anyone who publicly questions or deviates from their paradoxically orthodox understanding of “anarchism” (which, in particular, valorizes property destruction, aka “diverse” tactics), then fine: let them claim victory. The kinds of verbal (and actually physical) abuse that self-appointed “revolutionary” missionaries of social justice are willing to inflict on “traitors” has disgusted me right into a state of withdrawal.
However, i should mention one happy aspect of this disturbing and painfully alienating period has been a renewal of my experiential appreciation of the importance of feminism to my politics and ethics.
I’ve been reminded of how central feminism has always been to (the development of) my political awareness. The vitality of contemporary feminism, and its many critical, proto-anarchistic tendencies, is a huge source of inspiration and consolation in the face of an ascendant yet moribund macho (pseudo-)anarcho-hooliganism. In fact, the power and momentum of feminism can help sustain exiled anarchists, and keep us connected to our actualities. It can help us to live in the world, in as broad a sense as possible — rather than in a ghetto.
My hands will hammer out letters, my feet will gladly pound the ground in picket lines — and in civil disobedience, when appropriate; my ass will stiffly sit in meetings, and it will shake grotesquely during celebrations, and my mind will luxuriate in reading. And my heart, a little brokenly (or not broken but walking with a limp, a little droopingly) will indeed go on (props: Celine Dion). And i will conspicuously count and share my blessings: my family and friends.
Over time, i expect that, through my (and “our”, since i am not alone) efforts, some small amount of good will eventually and cumulatively come... and very little harm. Though this is perhaps recklessly optimistic.
I will always carry with me, as i have for many years, some sadness for anarchism — for its having been barbarously sawed off of the classical liberal tree from which it sprang. It has been turned into a club, and will no longer put forth new leaves (but will recruit new members, if they pass inspection). A new branch may grow in its place, or from another tree, or an entirely new, more beautiful tree may grow.
…And maybe someday giant cockroaches, perhaps with some residual human DNA, will frolic among rainbows in an era of perfect justice — or, at least, will struggle for justice in a context of hope and meaningful solidarity.
Maybe. But i won’t hold my breath.
Starting now, i’m going to put my productive blogging energies into a more balanced effort to honor the wide variety of sources of joy in my life:
I'm going to write about the beautiful people (Roy, Sara, and y'all-know-who-you-are), and the wonderful things — by which, in addition to objects of the natural world, as well as ideas, experiences, achievements (including political victories), and other intangibles, i absolutely do also, specifically, mean commodities: the many amazing products, by-products and cultural artifacts that emerge from (and sometimes despite) the existing, abominable industrial economic system — as well as the heavenly places (that’s you, Vancouver) that i love.
I may occasionally mention or describe especially timely or generally interesting aspects of my ongoing academic inquiries into anarchist political philosophy (i’ll still share my favorite quotes, etc.), but such things shall no longer be either the only or even the primary subject of this blog. There are far too many other interesting (whether frivolous or important) things to think about. I’ve been neglecting them.
We do not live for struggle, we struggle for life. And life should be joyful.
Therefore another name change is in order... This blog began personally, as “ryanarchy.” It went through an awkward stage as “Rye/Anarchy,” and then suddenly became these “Anarcho-Dad Rants” when Roy was born. The subtitle has grown up too, from an overly wordy effort to encapsulate broad, heterodoxical and heterogeneous interests, to an overly succinct distillation of essential elements.
The title(s) may change again soon, but to represent my humble aspiration (rather than my achievement) of greater happiness (for myself and all of humanity), i've settled on “Happy Dad Rants” for now.
I hereby declare this blog free from the tyrannically self-censorious, hyper-political meta-anarchistic narrowness of focus that once infected it. I’ll write again soon — and more frequently, i imagine, now that the curse has been lifted.
But until then... game on!